Some people say that the past is the past for a reason and you should never look back. I’m not sure I wholeheartedly agree with that statement. Timing is everything, and if your timing was off in the past it could mess up you future so you have to look back sometimes to look forward. I’m not saying spend your whole life wondering “what if”, and dwelling on the past. But I am saying, the past is important! Think about it…If there was no need to look back or to see what’s behind you, cars wouldn’t have rearview and side mirrors; all of which help you to look back. You have to look back and to your sides to know when it’s safe to change lanes and when you should stay put. Ever been riding along not really paying attention; suddenly you go to switch lanes, not realizing there was a vehicle in your “blind spot”? One of three things will happen

1. You’re going to catch yourself in time and get back in your lane
2. You’re going to over correct and more than likely cause an accident
3. You’re going to collide with the car that was in your blind spot

With that being said….

These have been some of the craziest few weeks I’ve had in a while. My emotions have been all over the place. If I didn’t know any better I’d think I was pregnant, but errummm that’s DEFINITELY not case. I feel so misunderstood right now. It’s like no matter what I do, or don’t do, say or don’t say, I end right back up here.  I don’t know what else to do. I’m tired of constantly explaining myself, when what I said was completely comprehensible the first time. I’ve never been the type of person to walk around on egg shells for anyone. No, I don’t like for people to be mad at me, but I also don’t like to bite my tongue. Here I am going through an emotional rollercoaster yet I’m finding myself more concerned with them being pissed than getting myself together. WTH, As hard as this may be to believe…I’m not superwoman. I’ve said it time and time again; I can’t be everything to everyone, while no one is being anything to me…I once heard someone say that the people in your life are like trees. Some are leaves, others are branches, and a few are the roots. Most people have many leaves in their life. Leaves are your associates, they hang around for a while but as soon as an intense wind comes they fall off. Others are branches…they can stand a few strong winds but when times start to get really overwhelming and you need them for support…they break. Very few are roots… they don’t have to be seen, but as long as the tree has life, the roots will be there supporting. We mess up when we give root/lifetime expectations to branches/seasonal people. Now, I’m usually on point with telling the difference…could I have mixed this one up?

It’s too late to get back in my lane, so now I have two options left. Over correct and end up on the side of the road hurt and alone or collide and hope that it’s a minor accident, but nothing that can’t be repaired. OMG help…did I give lifetime expectations to a seasonal relationship?!?!?! *Fingers crossed that I got it right*