Hmmm well apparently I expect too much from people. I guess my dad was right when he said, you can’t expect people to treat you like you would treat them or do for you what you would do for them. That statement became even more apparent this past weekend. IDK Maybe it’s just me, but please tell me what you think
I was on my way to visit my dad in Baltimore Maryland, when the car in front of me clipped the car in front of it causing both cars to spin and one car to hit the guard rail just before stopping millimeters in front of my car. Like seriously, my car came to a stop just in time. I floored the breaks and my dog went flying into the dash board. The car behind me had to almost run off the road to stop from hitting me in the rear. Naturally, this whole event freaked me out. My first thought was “Thank You Lord”. My second was “OMG I hope everyone is okay.” I was literally frozen for like 2 minutes. I couldn’t move; I was paralyzed just looking at all the commotion going on in front of me in. Once I finally snapped back I immediately starting crying. I mean I’ve never seen anything like that in my life, and for me to have almost been a part of it was/is traumatizing. I couldn’t pull over without holding up traffic even more, so my only other option was to try to compose myself and keep it moving. I was like an hour from my dads so calling him to come get me would have been pointless. I called my mom and my dad just for them to calm me down, but neither one of them answered, which freaked me out even more. I’ve never had a panic attack, but if they are anything like what I was experiencing, I feel for anyone who has them. I mean I was hyperventilating and my chest tightened. I’ve dealt with asthma most of my life, and it kinda felt like an attack was coming on. I haven’t had an attack in years so just the thought of it scared me even more. So once I couldn’t reach either of my parents I called the next closest person. I mean I knew he was at work, but I just needed to hear a calm voice. He answers and hears me crying, so of course he asked what was wrong. Once I told him what had happened he said something along the lines of well at least they didn’t hit you. I mean that’s true and all but sometimes the effects of something almost happening is just as bad as it actually happening. So anyways, I knew he was at work so I didn’t want to hold him up any longer so after about 5 minutes we got off the phone. Initially I was ok, but then I saw someone else almost get into an accident and it freaked me out all over again, so I called my best friend. My mom beeps in when I was talking to him and she talks to me for a good 30 minutes or so. After talking to my mom (and her praying all loud in my ear lol) I felt pretty much okay to drive on. So by the time I get to my dads my best friend was calling to make sure I’m okay. My ex saw my update on twitter and sent me an email asking if I was ok. A few other people saw my status on twitter and they sent me text messages making sure I was ok. Everyone I expected to hear from…I heard from….well, make that almost everyone.
When I finally hear from the one person I was expecting to hear from first (a day and a half later) I mention something to him about him not calling back to make sure I was ok or even to make sure I’d arrived to Maryland safely (Mind you it’s a 4.5 hour drive). He had the audacity to say “but you could have called and said you made it” then he said “you didn’t ask me to call to see if you made it”. I’m reading these text messages like he can’t be serious…He also said something about if someone called him crying about something that didn’t happened…IDK what he said after that, because I tossed the phone in the seat ignored him. Since when do I have ask someone who claims they care about me to check on me. I’m feeling like everyone else that knew I was on the road alone called and checked on me. I mean really??? Forget a relationship; I consider that just being a good friend. Granted I didn’t actually get into an accident, but if someone I care about, or even on a broader scale, if one of my friends called me crying…regardless of what they were crying about…I’m going to call them back to make sure they’re okay. Especially when they’ve NEVER called me crying before. This example is really drastic but if a woman almost gets raped, but it doesn’t really happen she could still be emotionally scarred from it. No the scars may not be as deep as they could have been but never the less the scars are still there. Again, very drastic example…I know…but I’m just saying sometimes almost can be bad too…It was at that moment that I realized what they said about me could possibly be true…Maybe I really do have Unrealistic Expectations of people. But wait…is it really an unrealistic expectation to expect someone to call and check on you…after they heard you crying…whether they thought the reason was valid or not?